I Couldn’t Cope Any Longer

I couldn’t cope any longer.

I had been sitting with Jordan, trying to help her with her schoolwork, and she was just not getting it.

She would write a little, then it was almost like she forgot what she was doing, and stopped. I didn’t understand at all.

The more frustrated I got, the more she shut down. I could see this, but I couldn’t stop myself. I kept thinking that we have been at this for over an hour now, and it should have only taken 5 minutes.

I could feel the frustration building up inside of me.

I had to give myself a time out before I completely lost my mind.

I had never given myself a time out before, but in this moment it felt right.

I would give my girls a time out when their emotions were becoming too overwhelming for them. So if they were not listening to me and getting frustrated, they would sit down on the bottom step to calm down. It was NOT used as a punishment for being bad.

The frustration I was feeling was real.